Why audition?

Some people have asked me this question.  I’m sure it’s a question that will be asked at the audition, and it’s a question that I really needed to think about and be sure I had a honest and honorable answer for.

I asked myself if it was to live out some childhood fantasy of trying to be cool, or popular, or noticed.  Nope!

I ased myself if it was for the possibility of fame and $$$.  Nuh-uh.

I really thought hard about this…

It came down to a couple of things.  It all started back about a year ago.

I had been thinking about going out for America Idol for a couple of years at that point, but always had some reason or other that I couldn’t make it out to an audition.  Not enough money, not enough vacation time at work.  How could i leave my wife and 1 child at that time, they needed me.

God had reall been working on me in some areas of my life.  Particularly in the area of trusting Him.  being willing to step out on a limb, so to speak, and let Him cut it off.  He was asking me who I trusted more.  Me or Him?

That was a tough question to answer, because the truth was I trusted myself.  I knew my abilities, my limits, my short comings and strengths.  I knew about God’s, but I never really experenced them in my own life, because I was afreaid to trust Him.

Most of my life, even before I became a Christian, I was afraid to try new things.  I was afraid that I would look foolish if people knew that I didn’t know how to do something.  I thought  would be ridiculed if I tried something new and failed at it.  I equated trying and not succeeding at someting right away with failure.  And I equated not succeeding the first time with not being good enough.

God reminded me that He “don’t make no junk!”  Through some very key people in my life at that time, God showed me the freedom in trying new things.  The thrill, the exciting, the anticipation that cam along with it was great.  He helped me realize that life was a series of trys, failures, successes, and trying again all rolled up into one.  It was not a neat package, but it was life.

Life could never be full without trying.  And trying wasn’t trying without trusting.  I was going to have to trust Him, if I was ever going to really be trying anything worth while.

I decided during that time that I was no longer going to let the fear of failure or the fear of unknown keep me from venturing out into life and try things.  I didn’t want to live my life, and come to the end of it with tons of regrets stemming from n ot trying things.  I wanted to be an example to my children of faith that would step up and step out for anything God was calling me to do.

I wanted to live a life that was full.  Not because I succeeded at everthing I tried, but because I tried to succeed.  I tried to live life to the fullest.  I took the chances, the abilities, the love and passion I was given and ran with it.

So, we come back to the question, “Why audition?”

I was made to be involved in music.  I was give talents that I cannot hide or be ashamed of.  I want to use them to honor God and bless people that hear/see it.

I want my children to see me and remember that dad was never afraid to try something, even if it meant he might fail.  Dad was the kind of man that would not just sit back and let life pass him by.  he got in the game and played!

Livin’ Out Loud,



This post is not about something that is so valuable, it is impossible to determine its full worth persay.  So, if you’re looking for some keen insight into finances, love or treasures of the heart….Please STOP reading this Now!

This post is about why it never pays to be cheap!!!

I secured a babysitter for Friday nigth o Erica and I could go out.  I ddn’t skimp on that piece, so there went $25 for the evening.  Which you will soon agree was worth every penny!

This babysitting enable Erca and I to have our first date night in about 2 months.   Have noticed that she and I really needed some time together, apart from the kids, from schedules and other pieces of life that so often keep her and I from alone time.  We did what every married couple probably does when they have this exciting opportunity…

It wasn’t sex, cause that would be awkward.  We would have either had to get “busy” in our bedroom, which would have been weird for us and the babysitter.  We would have had to rent a hotel room, andthen wouldn’t even hve slept in the bed…

We didn’t have a candle light dinner.  Although that would have been awesome.

We didn’t star gaze, and stare up into the heavens and get all philosophical or spiritual either!

We went to…Target!  Yup, just plain old Target.  Now that’s not pronounced Tar Get…In our household it is pronounced Tar-Jey, and the “J” is pronounced like it is in Jovan Musk.

Don’t ask why I am so random sometimes.  Although it could have to do with me drinking a Rockstar energy drink!?!?!?

Well, after our lovely time at Tar-Jey, we headed to Uno’s for some appetizers.  Why are they called appetizers?  They never increase my appetite.  They don’t get me ready for my meal.  If anything they make me so full that by the time my meal comes I can’t eat what I ordered.  That’s why we only ordered appetizers this time!!!

See me can real smart!

Let me step back just a few minutes before walking into Uno’s.

Rewind please!!!!  And here is where the title “Priceless” comes into play.

Parking your car in the parking garage, $5

Parking your car in the Honey Farms parking lot instead, $0

Walking out of Uno’s and seeing a tow truck getting ready to tow your sorry, cheap, chincy, can’t spend $5, can’t get the nerve up to get out of the car and ask the reeter where the parking is that Uno’s actually validates (Oh yeah!  Uno’s validates up to 2 hours for parking in the garage directly accross the street!)


Lesson learned: Don’t be cheap; you look foolish and hey, it’s only a few extra bucks.  She may think more of you for it.  Don’t be afraid to ask if you don’t know!

Livin’ Out Loud,


American Idol…To Be or Not to Be…There?!?

So, I have gone back and forth for about 2 months, on whether I should post about auditioning for American Idol.  Well, I have decided (in case you can’t tell) to announce it to all of you who may read this.  I am auditioning for American Idol at the New Jersey location.

My wife, our 2 boys, my brother, and erica’s friend Sam will begin our adventure on Saturday August 16, 2008.  We will leave from Worcester, MA and arrive in New Jersey.  From there I will stand in line Sunday 08/17/08 to register.  Ultimately the goal is to get through to all the auditions on Tuesday 08/19/08.

I’m not too sure on what to expect during all of this, but feel free to follow all of my updates through Twitter.  I’m really excited to see what God has in store for this guy from Massachusetts.  It should be a great ride.

This post took part in Randy Elrod’s Watercooler Wednesday here.  


Hey Merica…A Sad Day

If you haven’t heard the news, you can find it here. Yesterday America lost a shining comic, Bernie Mac.  I am not making a joke here people!  I was as surprised as many of your probably are.

He was a genius comic actor, and hilarious stand up comedian. He will be greatly missed.